QUOTE(Ethereal Sight @ Apr 13 2010, 04:42 PM)
I'm not sure that would haunt my conscience until I die... When I hate people, I get cold hearted towards them. VERY coldhearted. If someone I disliked were to die, I wouldn't care at all because it could only improve my life. Obviously I'm not going to be the one to kill them intentionally, but I won't cry over a cured disease. That said, even in this case it would be all someone else's fault. I got the swine flu earlier this year; does that mean if I pass it on to someone and then three people in the chain of infection later somebody dies it's my fault? I understand the main thrust of your post, but I'm not inclined to regret the removal of inconveniences, which, in my opinion, is what people become when they consider themselves possessed of inherent superiority to all other sentient beings.
Mmm, the words of innocence.
You've obviously never leveled an intention towards someone who then met with a premature end in apparent conjunction with that intention.
When someone you dislike dies, regardless of the speculation about what happens to that person or your relationship to them beyond the mortal coil, you may not be emotionally affected.
It's a different story when you do something - magical or just harsh words - and then they die suddenly in some fashion. Questions forever remain unanswered, the threat of their shade looms in the distant end of life - or possibly very nearby - while we wonder if one day we really will be judged by those we wronged, or even a vengeful deity. Even in life, what power might we encounter that will require of us that we face up to what we've done?
You are on a long and eventful journey through life, much less delving into the occult which will greatly complicate and enrich that journey. Along that path, you will be called to account for yourself, that you will one day bear witness to your own crimes - both those you meant to commit and those you didn't mean to - in True Nakedness before the abyss. I'm not talking afterlife judgement, I'm talking about an inevitable point you must reach and contend with in order to continue your intitiation. If you act in this way, you ultimately become trapped by the lower ego, and it becomes very difficult to contend with it when you have been giving it strength for so long.
So, consider well what you do, and weigh the value of your actions carefully. Do not act thoughtlessly, and make sure that you actions really do count. Does it matter if these people fear you? Or for that matter even that they leave you alone? Do their actions have such a weight to them that you cannot stand under them? What kind of person will you be in response?
The ignorant, the vain, and the unaware have the luxury of things like vengeance and petty cruelty, because they don't know if they will ever have to face up to their actions - maybe there is judgement after life and maybe not. However, if you endeavor to become a magician, you certainly will.
So, choose your actions wisely.